school: crow

[shaft]

tbc

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[shaft]

[ it's just an icon ]

It does seem incomprehensible, but here we are. [ He swims over to the edge, folding his arms there so he can pillow his chin atop them. ] I wouldn't try and aim for that end.

[chevaliered]

[ terrible ]

I don't want to end up like that, but if they count it as a kill then--

[ siiiigh. ] A tragedy.

And yup. Here we are. Folding paper planes and tending to bees and acting like that's totally normal.

[shaft]

It's good to be adaptable. [ sleepy ] Though I wonder how long this charade will last.

[chevaliered]

[ don't fall asleep in the pool you useless anti-monsterfucker. ]

Two weeks so far. If it's how we're getting vouchers? Until the end.

[shaft]

Is getting vouchers the be all end all of this place?

[chevaliered]

If you get enough you might be able to ask for a ticket home.

[ smile ]

[shaft]

Isn't that just the reward for graduating?

[chevaliered]

Ahead of dragging around asses around here until a year is up or all of us get killed off somehow, if what happened last week turns into a pattern.

[shaft]

[ ... ]

Did you hear that from someone?

[chevaliered]

No, I'm just cynical. You know like when you see something start tumbling down the hill and you hope it'll stop, but know it could just keep going?

Hope for the best, expect the worst.

[shaft]

[ ... ]

That's remarkably cynical. You're not one to hope?

[chevaliered]

Everyone hopes! But y’know… sometimes you don’t expect good things to pan out.

Why, you gonna tell me you’re a paragon of hope and good faith?

[shaft]

My answer to last week's question was "hope", but no. I wouldn't say I'm particularly inclined toward good faith.

Is it pathetic to hope that one day you won't be disappointed by everything around you?

[chevaliered]

... I dunno. Do you think if you start thinking you might not be it'll just hit harder when you are?

[shaft]

Perhaps. Unless, even when you are, you think next time will be better. On and on.

[chevaliered]

Like a never-ending ring of optimism? Damn. Imagine pulling that off.

[shaft]

I think some people need that kind of thing to keep going.

[chevaliered]

I'm not sure how much it really helps. Maybe not... in terms of how much it helps them, but at the cost of what, exactly?

[shaft]

You think optimism has a cost?

[ He doesn't sound like he disagrees. ]

[chevaliered]

Not necessarily to the individual, but the people around them. Optimism's the kind of thing that has you seeing the good in people who'd harm you, and people who care about you have to sit back and watch it happen.

[shaft]

That's a pretty mature way of looking at it. When optimism turns into self-sacrifice turns into lack of self-preservation...

[chevaliered]

Yeah, I've dealt with my fair share of that. Sometimes it's optisim and self deprecation, and that's a doozy.

[shaft]

That kind of thing really is exhausting, isn't it? I've never thought you need to be self-sacrificing to be "good".

[chevaliered]

Some people's mind's just work that way. Y'know, like... "it's fine if I die to save the world, at least it's not my friends" while the friends are distraught at the thought of losing that person.

...

It can be difficult though. Sometimes it's not that simple.

[shaft]

Of course, nothing in life is simple.

Sometimes the circumstances force our hands. Like here. We can't scheme our way of letting people die.