shaft | hotel: shinobu

[ He'd been rearing up to brush aside the memory, but the question catches him off guard.

He finds that he doesn't mind answering. ]

Something better, I suppose. A place where people weren't judged by their blood. [ A shake of his head. ] Unfortunately, things were even more closed off on the other side of the border.

[ she knows he was ready to brush her aside. her expressions softens. ]

Were you judged no matter where you went?

No, I smartened up. [ he smiles, teasing, deflecting. ] Getting by is much easier when you just hide who you are.

Maybe so, but isn't that painful? Isn't that lonely?

[ hate to break it to claude, but deflecting shinobu isn't that easy. ]

How smart is it to always escape, always run?

[ Shinobu really gets to the heart of it. ]

I suppose it's matter of perspective. For me... I had dreams that I chased, of reforming nations. [ He's been a little overconfident in his abilities. ] In the face of all that, solitude didn't matter much. As long as I could survive another day.

Unless you think that a liar doesn't have the right to lead.

I think those who lead nations are bound to lie, and rulers are often solitary.

[ it comes part and parcel in some ways. she doesn't necessarily think it's the greatest thing, but what can she do? she can do a great many things, but her battle isn't in politics. ]

Are your dreams no longer the same?

[ there is no winning in politics so shinobu is valid

Claude just shrugs, glancing away. ]

I was overconfident. Those dreams were too big for me, so I suppose you could say I'm in between ambitions now.

Edited 2022-06-29 17:29 (UTC)

It's not a terrible thing to have big dreams.

but if he wants to change his dreams, she can't really stop him. it is a little sad, though, because she thinks what he wanted to do was nice. ]

Oh yeah? Care to give a little insight into yours?

[ hey where's my mem ]

[ wow, as if to answer his question, stardust swirls around them!

here is where i would put a link to youtube of shinobu talking about her dreams to tanjiro to go with her backstory IF IT EXISTED anyway

he can have a more practical ambition that contains mentions of possible vore. ]

[ He knows there's plenty of fantastical worlds out there, with threats beyond his wildest imagination. It must take a certain kind of creativity and resilience to survive in climates like that.

But.

He just stares at her, in shock. ]

If I reprimand you for your self-sacrifice, are you going to tell me that it's the only logical option?

[ in some ways, she expects this. she knows what she wants to do is extreme for her world. it's not as wild as some others, but not many people plan to get eaten.

her smile doesn't budge. ]

No. It wasn't the only logical option, but it is the one I chose and the one I thought would end in less death.

[ it is also the one that gets her revenge. ]

[ He tilts his head, running the memory through his head and listening to her words. ]

And it lets you repay the favour of your sister's loss first hand.

If you're using past tense... did your plan already come to fruition then?

I won't deny I wanted him dead.

[ she won't shy away from her revenge. it was revenge, but it also helps hundreds and thousands of people. ]

He is dead, with certainty.

Did it play out according to your plan?

Yes.

[ she seems at peace with it. ]

Did you have any regrets?

[ he's asking without any judgment, though there is a slight sorrow to his tone ]

[ it's very sweet of him to be sad for her EVEN THOUGH HE IS OR WAS ALSO DEAD idk what he did with his seasons wish. ]

I did not want to leave those who cared for me mourning too much, but otherwise, I was fine with the outcome.

[ it went as planned, but... she would admit to wanting to have killed that demon without dying. if her poisons worked... if she could've beheaded him, but she's not so unrealistic. ]

[ it's okay if he dies he's anime ancient ]

I understand that you did what you thought was best, and I'm not naïve enough to believe that wars can be won without sacrifice.

But still, I find it terrible that you couldn't survive.

[ it's five years. ]

I appreciate your kindness, Claude-san. [ that's sincere. she doesn't want to cause sadness, but it's still kind of him to think so. ] What did you sacrifice?

[ if only it was touch week so he could squeeze her shoulder ]

Too much to count. The lives of my soldiers. The livelihoods of our people as the war razed their fields and towns.

It's hard to think of anyone who didn't suffer for it.

[ coward.

she listens, and she has to wonder: ]

Are these your regrets?

Yes, and no. There is no war without sacrifice, but it's easy for me to say that, living in a manor with no concern of wages.

But maybe we should've just surrendered, if we were going to lose anyway. Is independence worth all that sacrifice? I don't know.

Did you agree with the reasoning behind the war? Did you want your country to be part of what that stood for?

Would the people under you have wanted it?

[ there's a reason they were independent in the first place, isn't there? ]

[ me closing my eyes as i try to sort out 3h plot ]

Some wanted to side with the Empire, some wanted to resist.

Trying to align a country's worth of people is no easy task.

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