It sounds like there were multiple people after her, Claude. [ .... ] So I don't think you should blame yourself for that. And I don't think that makes you a coward, either.
[ choosing not to murder is good actually. ]
... She was the one who decided to do that, anyway. Maybe it was.. better for her, to do it herself.
[ claude is someone who takes everything on his shoulders, too. she can't really lecture him about it, since she's the same, but she just tries to let him know she understands ]
The way you deal with it is different.... but you have a lot of the same heartaches, I think.
[ loss, betrayal. being f3h mcs ]
And you both have a lot of empathy, despite all of that.
[ He's still not sure that he sees what Maya sees, but he accepts her words for now.
Even if they way she describes him feels alien. Heartache? Empathy? He's always been a cold, calculating leader, that he can't imagine those concepts applying to himself. ]
[ claude in this very thread was mourning for catra's pain and wishing he he had protected her??? while also feeling empathy for people mourning byleth?? ]
[ anyway since this is emoshare he will just feel her her belief in him, which is very gross. ]
I think I've gotten to know you two pretty well over these past few weeks. Memory sharing, feelings sharing, and all that.
[ the feeling gets a little stronger. maya is very fond. a little exasperated, but very fond. ]
You know, he said something similar to me about you and I. He also thanked me for defending you, a couple of weeks ago. Back when he was still kind of a jerk.
[ He does have the decency to look a little sheepish when Maya says that. ]
Yeah, I was... really surprised to see Dimitri the way he was when we first arrived. I'd only known him for a year when we were in school, but he was always kind and considerate of others. Basically everything you'd imagine a prince charming to be, so it doesn't surprise me that some of that was still in there.
[ even if claude can't believe in himself -- or to the extent that she can, maybe her belief will help him. it's rock solid ]
[ also, he's a dork, and that is a feeling that comes across through the connection. dimitri, though... despite everything, she can picture it. she's been seeing his moe side longer than most ]
He cares a lot. Maybe even.... too much. [ she says this without a trace of irony, though she is the same way. just without a feral hobo arc ]
The person he is right now... do you think you could ever reconcile?
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... I kept thinking that I should've killed Byleth first. [ An awkward thing to admit, but here we go. ] I'd thought about it, and I wanted to, but.
I was a coward. And now Catra's...
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[ choosing not to murder is good actually. ]
... She was the one who decided to do that, anyway. Maybe it was.. better for her, to do it herself.
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I think it just gave her another reason to hate herself, though.
[ Bad. ]
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[ so really. there's no winning. ]
So don't take that on your shoulders. You know?
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Do you think I hate myself?
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But I think you carry a lot of regret and pain in your heart. That kind of thing takes a toll on people.
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[ ... He snorts. ]
I'm starting to sound like Dimitri.
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[ squeezes him a little tighter, though. she loves him very much, that much is clear thru emoshare, and maybe that will help. ]
I think that you two have a lot in common, actually.
[ except for dimitri being a byleth simp ]
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He can feel her affection though, and it does help lighten his mood. ]
Are we? I've always thought we couldn't be more different.
[ Probably why they can't get along. ]
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The way you deal with it is different.... but you have a lot of the same heartaches, I think.
[ loss, betrayal. being f3h mcs ]
And you both have a lot of empathy, despite all of that.
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Even if they way she describes him feels alien. Heartache? Empathy? He's always been a cold, calculating leader, that he can't imagine those concepts applying to himself. ]
It seems like you understand him quite well.
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[ anyway since this is emoshare he will just feel her her belief in him, which is very gross. ]
I think I've gotten to know you two pretty well over these past few weeks. Memory sharing, feelings sharing, and all that.
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That's true. It's hard to believe it's just been a few weeks. I'm glad he's got a friend like you. He needs someone looking out for him.
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[ the feeling gets a little stronger. maya is very fond. a little exasperated, but very fond. ]
You know, he said something similar to me about you and I. He also thanked me for defending you, a couple of weeks ago. Back when he was still kind of a jerk.
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Yeah, I was... really surprised to see Dimitri the way he was when we first arrived. I'd only known him for a year when we were in school, but he was always kind and considerate of others. Basically everything you'd imagine a prince charming to be, so it doesn't surprise me that some of that was still in there.
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[ also, he's a dork, and that is a feeling that comes across through the connection. dimitri, though... despite everything, she can picture it. she's been seeing his moe side longer than most ]
He cares a lot. Maybe even.... too much. [ she says this without a trace of irony, though she is the same way. just without a feral hobo arc ]
The person he is right now... do you think you could ever reconcile?
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It's not quite like Molly and the others, or Nier and Kainé. Dimitri and I were never close, so we have no reason to start now.
[ Though, to be fair, Claude wasn't close with anyone. His best friend is a lizard. ]
I won't annoy him anymore, if it makes you feel better.
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[ but it is a lot to ask considering their canon points ]
But I think the reason could be.... maybe something good come out of all of this. If you could see eye to eye.... even just a little.
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[ Squeezes her shoulder. ]
You and me, for example.
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[ which is to say there is a lot of warmth coming from her right now ]
Of course... but I'm talking about good for you and him, you know.
[ apparently she is not that good for femblems? ]
Your better tomorrow... maybe it could start with that.