I didn't promise anything and I didn't do much in the first place.
[ It is still alpha week, so Nier gently forces Claude to lean on him! Rest your head against his good shoulder or arm and just... Relax. Don't think too much. ]
Yeah. Just because there's extenuating circumstances doesn't make it any easier. [ Profound exhaustion. ] Your dorm has suffered a lot. I can understand why you might want to hide from it.
... I'm not hiding from it. I plan on staying because I don't want to forget what this place has taken from us. [ Suddenly, there's indignation and determination as he embraces the reminders of death every day. It does die down. ] It just reminds me of when my sister was taken. Then I'd return to an empty home.
[ He doesn't need escape, either, considering he still slept under the same roof as Byleth. Having to talk about this part triggers an endless fountain of wrath. ]
Yeah, Shadowlord—the leader of the Shades—kidnapped her. It took me five years before I found her.
[ Five years of an empty home. Five years where he desperately believed she was alive despite people telling him otherwise. He shakes his head since how many times is he going to tell Claude sad things?? ]
Sorry, I didn't mean to talk about my past some more.
[ There’s that usual jitter before it tapers into comfort. Too bad we are just guilt city here because… People have been so kind to him here and he doesn’t know if he deserves it. His hands have been stained red for so long and his sins have painted him black.
But Nier has also selfishly chosen to live. He has also chosen to accept people’s love and kindness, so he will accept Claude’s whether he’s deserving or not. There’s a soft smile as he lazily presses their foreheads together. ]
Thank you, but I want you to think about your own happiness, too. [ There’s clear fondness and gratitude. ] I’ll be fine…
[ He really wants to sleep now, eyes slipping shut, and a small sigh escaping him. ]
I am a narcissist after all. Thinking about my own happiness is in my nature.
[ Despite the joke, his emotions don't entirely reflect much optimism. Grief still clings to him, not yet having forgotten everything that happened in the gym. And beyond that, there's fear and uncertainty. He doesn't know if he really believes in some nebulous wish that'll be granted to them at the end of this, and he doesn't know if there will be a solution.
Or if they'll be picked off, week by week.
Before his thoughts can spiral too badly, he forces himself to take a breath, refocusing his thoughts. ]
But we'll figure something out. The potential of Annie and Riku's items is giving me a little hope.
[ Good job, very funny. He rubs their noses together a bit before pulling back, then looking out to the rest of the archery building. So much has happened and he's weary, grieving all the same despite the complicated emotions. The items give him something to focus on, though. ]
... We might see someone again soon. [ Nier thinks it's going to be Molly. ] Then we'll see everyone again.
[ In comparison to Claude's emotions, Nier's is bright with determination, resolve, and reprisal. It's fueled with a lot of anger, the desire for vengeance against whoever put them here, and... Hope. ]
Death isn't going to stop me, either. They're going to regret bringing us here—[ If only he could stir up all the desire for revenge when Claude is next to him... Exuding happiness and affection.
He doesn't know what to do with those? He covers his mouth as he radiates endeared vibes. Claude is cute? Weird, but cute. ]
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I didn't promise anything and I didn't do much in the first place.
[ It is still alpha week, so Nier gently forces Claude to lean on him! Rest your head against his good shoulder or arm and just... Relax. Don't think too much. ]
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It's hard for me to take advice from someone who doesn't follow their own.
[ He's teasing a little. Also! He's a huge hypocrite. ]
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... I can't be left alone with my thoughts, so resting isn't great for me.
[ It's a serious answer. ]
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Try letting them out. It might help.
[ He is willing to listen. ]
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I can't hack at any of the trees.
[ Yeah. ]
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He straightens up, rubbing at his face as he looks at Nier. ]
I meant... to stop hiding your feelings, Nier. To say whatever's on your mind and- scream? If you want.
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[ Genuinely. ]
I know the circumstances are different, especially after what we've seen, but I'm sick of being lied to. [ ... ] Summer's emptier now, too.
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Yeah. Just because there's extenuating circumstances doesn't make it any easier. [ Profound exhaustion. ] Your dorm has suffered a lot. I can understand why you might want to hide from it.
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... I'm not hiding from it. I plan on staying because I don't want to forget what this place has taken from us. [ Suddenly, there's indignation and determination as he embraces the reminders of death every day. It does die down. ] It just reminds me of when my sister was taken. Then I'd return to an empty home.
[ Actual truth, Nier can't handle loneliness. ]
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[ That's something that he hadn't heard before though, and it just... bums him out. Everything he learns is just sadder and sadder. ]
She was taken?
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Yeah, Shadowlord—the leader of the Shades—kidnapped her. It took me five years before I found her.
[ Five years of an empty home. Five years where he desperately believed she was alive despite people telling him otherwise. He shakes his head since how many times is he going to tell Claude sad things?? ]
Sorry, I didn't mean to talk about my past some more.
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[ The wrath doesn't bother him. He's just sad and tired in return, with a weird swell of helplessness.
He strokes Nier's hair for a moment. ]
I don't know if the promise of those wishes is real, but I'm going to find a way to make sure you get a happy ending after this.
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[ There’s that usual jitter before it tapers into comfort. Too bad we are just guilt city here because… People have been so kind to him here and he doesn’t know if he deserves it. His hands have been stained red for so long and his sins have painted him black.
But Nier has also selfishly chosen to live. He has also chosen to accept people’s love and kindness, so he will accept Claude’s whether he’s deserving or not. There’s a soft smile as he lazily presses their foreheads together. ]
Thank you, but I want you to think about your own happiness, too. [ There’s clear fondness and gratitude. ] I’ll be fine…
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I am a narcissist after all. Thinking about my own happiness is in my nature.
[ Despite the joke, his emotions don't entirely reflect much optimism. Grief still clings to him, not yet having forgotten everything that happened in the gym. And beyond that, there's fear and uncertainty. He doesn't know if he really believes in some nebulous wish that'll be granted to them at the end of this, and he doesn't know if there will be a solution.
Or if they'll be picked off, week by week.
Before his thoughts can spiral too badly, he forces himself to take a breath, refocusing his thoughts. ]
But we'll figure something out. The potential of Annie and Riku's items is giving me a little hope.
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[ Good job, very funny. He rubs their noses together a bit before pulling back, then looking out to the rest of the archery building. So much has happened and he's weary, grieving all the same despite the complicated emotions. The items give him something to focus on, though. ]
... We might see someone again soon. [ Nier thinks it's going to be Molly. ] Then we'll see everyone again.
[ In comparison to Claude's emotions, Nier's is bright with determination, resolve, and reprisal. It's fueled with a lot of anger, the desire for vengeance against whoever put them here, and... Hope. ]
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[ The way Nier rubs their noses together brings a little colour to his face, not embarrassment, just... affection. Happiness. Other gross emotions. ]
We'll figure it out. At the very least, I've never known death to stop Byleth from anything.
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He doesn't know what to do with those? He covers his mouth as he radiates endeared vibes. Claude is cute? Weird, but cute. ]
Good thing the week is going to end.
[ FUCK EMOTION SHARE THIS IS AWKWARD ]
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Yeah. It's been exhausting navigating all these emotions. Hopefully next week will be a break.
[ Yawns. Tired. ]
I'm going to keep shooting for a while, you don't have to stick around if you don't want.
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[ wraps this pc up. ]